The truth of your love you left behind,
A treasure, a gift, that you hoped I'd soon find;
You helped me to learn and wished that I'd grow,
I never imagined I'd be missing you so;
Life seemed so harsh many years ago,
Now darker than I ever wanted to know;
I'm not sure how to handle this agony and pain,
As I look at your pictures again and again;
A mother's love is not taken for granted,
For children she prayed for and desperately wanted;
I'm not sure how I can go on living,
But I know you'd tell me to keep on trying.
I think of heaven and I hear your voice,
In my heart and my head where you left a deep void;
I wonder if maybe I'm losing my mind,
Because I'm wishing so hard you hadn't left me behind;
Celby, Jazzy, my beautiful girls,
My love, my passion, my yearning, my world;
Please tell me you're still here, right beside me,
And ask God to wrap me in his presence and hide me;
I beg Him to some day heal these misgivings,
So I know I can live in a state of forgiveness.
I am lost without you.
Love Mommy.